Of course after a tiring and exhausting semester in a college, everybody deserves a semester break. Unwind, rest and do facebook maybe. But for me, I really don't know if I am dumb enough that my semester break is within my hands. Maybe there are alot of reasons why I can't even breathe the break everybody is wishing for, maybe for some. Like tomorrow we have a duty in KAMUNING LYING IN, and honestly I don't know how to goo there by commuting. It will last until Saturday. 

Another thing that bothers me is the reshuffling of the sections. FUCK! Why do they have to do that. I am really dissapointed with what is happening right now, not only with myself but with the college as well. Sincerely I don't know what to do next semester If I am to be transfered with another section. I was about to cry yesterday night, reminiscing those times that our section is solid and complete.

But i think this is better than being kicked out from the college for failing a certain course. This program I am enrolled at is much difficult than other programs offered by those top billed colleges and universities. I am not acting like a shit here. But damn it, NURSING? who would care? After you finished this, what now? It's either you can go abroad or you stay here in MANILA being a call center agent.  Fuck those Nursing schools that suddenly popped up like a mushroom and trying to make a name in the Nursing profession, buth the truth is they are just for the money. Because the fact that they know that Nursing is really in demand before. That is why Nurses are overproduced nowadays.

The supply is very high but the demand is very low. Which makes an imbalance to the Nursing practice. Too much of that dissapointing reality. Last night I've watched " Ma millionaire's first love", a korean movie. It is a tearjerking movie, I guess! It is a bout a millionaire to be, but suddenly a girl change her life. Typical story, it may seem. But you need to try watching it!

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Of all the things that I usually do to waste my time before is to put an entry on my blog. It really is a part of my routine, a task maybe. But as time progresses and as I grow older there are those factors that predispose to my lack of posting entries here. I really do miss my blog. I missed posting very vital events not only in my life but in our country as well. I think my last entry was about our duty in the delivery room. 

Well, let us forget those entries that I missed, let's move forward to things that to be celebrated and to be grateful for. Recently I had taken my removal examination on NCM 101 ( maternal and child Nursing), because my grade didn't meet the standars of the subject. Coincidentally my removals exam is also in time with my repeat rotation duty in N6 a ward, in the new building. Luckily our C.I is Sir Santos who showed support and encouragement to us, he didn't bother to stop us in studying those 2 fully loaded books. But as a nursing student I still have to be responsible for my patients. I habe 2 patients that day that needs rendering of care and proper promotion of health, my colleagues who are also my friends volunteer themselves to attend my patient. AW! I feel loved.

And then REMOVALS was done. I failed of course. Luckily before the start of the class we signed a contract that whoever fails the removals will be enrolled for remedials. hehe. We have to attend a 3 day class and answer 2 long exams per day averaging 200 items per day. Me, ralph, nikka, and JV sticked together and help each other to work things out. We even play TONG-ITS before the major exam. Every feedback is heart bounding to us, because every exam is difficult. We are compensating with the weakness of each other in order to pass. the 4 of us even go to church yesterday at Sto. Domingo.

And earlier is the gorundbreaking major remedial examinations, and with patience, perseverance and prayers, we passed it. I almost cry with tears. lol.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of those who prayed for the success of us. Thank you!

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I am a nursing student as you know. Well maybe there are some things that I should boast or I should be proud of. Though there are some very challenging and undoubtedly very difficult times that lies behind this journey, there are also some things that soothes me and can make me smile. This semester we are exposed to different areas in the hospital but it was more likely focused on child and maternal wards.

My first duty was on the Pediatric Charity which really sucks, It was a very traumatic experience i wish i could put it on Dumbledore's pensieve or somehow it will regress as time goes by.It is a long story, i guess it will take me two entries to finished it. XD. Second is on the new building, w/c i don't also want to talk about but my previous entry is about my stay there.

Thirdly, is on the Out Patient department which really is kinda cool, our instructress is great and cool, the area is well i think is not in my area of expertise. My only job there is to be a barker, shouting surnames of patients that will eventually get mad if their names was called late and someone who is actually late, called first.

There is an instance in that ward where all the mothers goes gaga on me, they are like bees squeezing me and telling me that their names was on the list first but some mothers are called early they come to me like I was the crowds enemy. *sighs*, I come to enroll myself in this program not to be a barker and yet they are like that to me, thanks to my long lasting stretchable patience. Ms. A. our C.I there was kinda funny, she throws jokes and stuffs. One thing I mastered there is to compute AOG's and EDC's of mothers there. Imagine about 150+ out patients. Also is mastering the art of injecting tetanus toxoid to the mother's deltoid aside from taking vital signs. Sometimes I thought that is Nursing the perfect occupation form me. Thoough some instructors told me that I can be a better nurse, but I can't imagine myself being a nurse.

Fourth duty is on the Nursery Ward (charity), it is a special area, that's why we are able to wear for the first time our Scrub suit which really make me look like McDreamy of Greys'. Thank God our C.I there is already our C.I last summer, that's why we feel great and good at her. Nursery is great. we are exposed to different skills that should be rendered to a newborn. From receiving the baby, to cord care, to cleaning the baby removing the vernix caseosa to bathing the newborn. Then taking the anthropometrics, signing papers for newborn records, to rooming in the babies to their mothers. There I experienced to be a dad, from preparing the babies bottle, preparing the milk formula to inserting the bottle to the babies mouth letting them suck it, and sadly if they are poorly sucking it you should try different styles in order for them to drink it. After feeding, of course burping the baby which really making me crazy because I can't distuinguish the sound. AMP. It is my first time there to handle a newborn with pneumonia which is placed on the isolation area. Taking his v/s every 15 minutes to check his stability, feeding him and wrapping him to blankets because he is hypothermic also placing droplight to him, whoo, I am so attached to babies and children. I wish I could be a better father to my children someday.

And there on the Nursery Charity where I met an 8 mo. cute little baby girl. I feel like her father or somehow I wish that I could be his father. I even gave her a souvenir toy, so that someday he will remember me. I am into crying right now. Moving on. I really mastered bathing a newborn. Because every morning there is this time that is alloted for the babies to bathe. So the parents lined up outside for their babies to smell like a baby. lol. Of course one thing that is kinda aloofing is that when your baby poops. Especially if the poo is so sticky like a sundot-kulangot ( a food from Baguio). Of course cleaning it is a Nursing aide's job, but because we came there to learn and to experience we took the challenge.). I really love our C.I there she is one of the C.I's which really wants our to eat alltogether with her. I will surely miss working in that ward. I never had troubled working with my groupmates because they are one of my best friends in that College. That's why working with them in Nursery ward is just like we are palying and enjoying ourselves there. Well I think it is the bonding we had since our first duty on our 2nd year there. It is not like a competition to them, hence it is like you are competing to yourselves and there they are cheering.

And now here we are on the Delivery room it is my first day yesterday. We are on the night shift from 3 pm to 11 in the evening. Well what will you expect to see on the DR? Of course a woman's womanity. XD. yeah it is my first time to assist a doctor to pull the baby out, to make some stitches to insert my bare finger to a woman's thing. I did not perform an I.e. I just put the  catheter inside the woman's urinary meatus. Yes and of course my hands are shacky; It is not in my small nor big dreams to prep in to a labor. My expertise is on the O.R.lol. ). Maybe this will serve as a stepping stone for my future exposure in the Operating room. One thing i really hate in that ward is me cleaning the used instruments. AMP. But in fairness i am able to memorize those instruments at once from the tissue forceps to small clamp. And on the first day i received my first actual and assist delivery cases. I hope this day will have more woman to be on labor. . Our C.I there looks like my Highschool English teacher. . Well i think that's it for now.

I am sorry me dear readers of my blog if It takes me a long time to post an entry, maybe there are already thousand of new users of tabulas who don't know me because of my long absence. I hope I can be a regular blogger here again. Just pray for me this time again so that I can pass 3rd yr 1st semester again. I will thank you all for the prayers. It really works trust me!

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I am actually exhausted right now. I feel like I'm already drained by the expectations this program (course) wants me to do. Yesterday when I got home tired, weary and super weak as in, My dad and mom give me a dozen of " demands", they even got angry at me when I forgot to put my clothes to laundry, they gave me words and cuss that made me in distress. That's why I answered them in an illed manner way while crying, I said to them "  I'm tired"... really tired. And I point out to them that I have a really hard time coping up withmy subjects because what I said earlier, it's all in the demands of this course. From the quizzes, long exams, NCP's, case studies and even case presentation really gave me a heartache. I know I am not in the position to answer my parents in such way, but I hope that they will understand me, and instead of givine me burden they should give me the support that I ought to have because they are my parents, they should see my worth. I am doing this not for my own good, but for the good of them. they want to go to states, so be it, that is why I am studying Nursing.

I know it's kinda rude and it is a not an adnirable attitude from a son. But I've already done it. Stress and hardwork plus patience, darn! So i decided not to go with them yesterday and decided to stay to my uncles and cousin. I am not that lonely in class especially in the hospital setting, my friends are with me. Even in our duties I am never tired because of my groupmates whom I considered my best pals in my Nursing career.

I think that I am getting too dramatic this week, and it is not me anymore. I am so fierce and tough when handling such problems. I don't know, I really don't know. I love Group 2, my RLE group, so much not all of them really. They are my fortress in our duties. And on the other day, There is a not really fight, but almost a fight, It is because of a piece of stethoscope, my Stethoscope specifically that triggered the arguments. One of my groupmate "lopez" blamed "ralph" as the one who get it because I can't find it and it is vital signs time. And the steth I am pertaining to is a Littman classic that my aunt gave me before, It is a very special steth because it is her personal use since '96. That's why I am taking care of it like a pet. Going back, I know I am also to blame because I even doubted ralph's statement that he is not the one who used it or hide it. So he goes out like a mad killer and I follwed him and said to me with power and intense "'Tang ina mo, Sisihin nio ako". I even him push him to guard myself. And it is my first time to see him acting like that, because personally he is not like that, he is quiet and always laughing. But from that moment I saw him like a dragon with ears flaming hot.

 So i decided not to talk to him or not to bother him anymore. Unfortunately my steth is being used by Nox then. And tetay even come between the two of us and she even said "mag shake hands na nga kayo, I laugh inside inisip ko "PArang bata naman masyado tong atake na to",  But my pride is as high as the peak of Mount everest that I will not apologize for that mistake. And I even asked our Instructor that if she can allow me to step out of the duty that day. But she said to me "kakain mo lang, aalis ka na naman". lol. And I have no guts to see my patient anymore, because he is my buddy for that day and pride kills me. The staff asked me to obseve the IV bottle because we will discontinue it that day, so I have no choice but to act professionally then there he comes. But I think our patient is the mediator  because of the plato wraps that may patient gave us with that chunky chicken inside we became ok. One thing I learned from this is never doubt a friend. Doubt a stranger but not a friend, and not to blame someone if you have no proof. But i think it is healthy to fight with a friend even Jesus and Peter fight once, but if you really are friends then there are no boundaries for forgiveness.

After that we played l4d with emerson and Nox and martian as well. With tha kind of scene, I started to get nostalgic and again missed highschool. I miss my life, the way I live highschool is so great  that every moment of my life I will cherish it. The friends I have on highschool are like precious stones to me, to be kept and to be treasured. Second to my family I have my college friends and my highschool friends. The word friend is very broad, you can never use it to a certain person once you appreciated the meaning of it or once you learn how to be a friend. I wanna go back to highschool. I turned on the radio last night and coincidentally the song is somewhat like this " highschool life oh ang highschool life, every memory kay ganda" .

 

So much for the drama. I just want to give my symphaty and condolences to the relatives and family of the late Michael Jackson, he really is a pop icon, but sorry for him I am not a fan. So MJ wherever you are just BEAT IT......

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