I slept almost 3 am today, well i think my thoughts seem bothering me alot. I cried, yes I did cried for two hours continuously without hankies or anything that could wipe those awful salty tears, again it is just my thoughts that triggered my eye to burst with tears. I am really depressed with what's going on with someone. I don't know why, i should be on the first place. Maybe because we've been friends and the best of buds for about 3 years and counting. And yesterday he's been acting like we were never friends at all. I don't know why? That is why I tried to apologize to him. And yet i still feel unwell. I am currently bombarded with problems, problems in relationship, with money and now with my best friend. This month would have been a roller coaster rode for me. I did enter several conflicts and now im trying to iron it fold by fold, little by little.

 

Sometimes I asked God, why gave me this kind of problems? I even questioned his authority up high. Then i found the key to my questions, I ended up fixing my problems without his assistance or aid, i did even forgot to pray to him and ask his supervision. I keep thinking, planning and solving with myself. Now I know.

 

Today, I guess everything is settling, everything is going back to normal. But i feel the difference of what is today and what he is before. I miss the old him, my buddy, my pal, and my brother. I hope he will be ok!

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nakakainis, midterm week na naman, at ang mas nakakainis ngayong nagdaang linggo, ay yung additional plus points namin hindi pa binibigay. Nabibwisit ako, kesyo di daw ako nakalagda ddun sa mga activities na sinalihan. Eh lekat pala sila, hindi pa ba obvious yung exposure ko sa pelikula, Ano ba gusto nila? Haynaki, nakakapanginit ng ulo sa CGHCN! Pansin niyo tagalog muna ako ngayon, naiinis na rin ako sa kakaingles, feeling ko mali mali na grammar ko. totoo pala na pag di mo masyado ng ginagamit, hihina ka dun. Speaking of mahina, mahina yung volume nung dvd copy nung avatar na nabili ng erpats ko. Walang wala dun sa IMAX sa SM north na pinanoodan ko. Nagiisip na ako ng susunod na pelikula na isusunod ko sa IMAX eh. Isa sa pinaka nangunguna eh yung THE LAST AIRBENDER. 

 

Inaabangan ko din yung THOR, THE AVENGERS, pati yung Legion, Dami ko na namang gusto sa buhay. O sya, sige aral na muna ako!

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 It was a blow. This 2009 was a massive year for me, It's like the lines are not intersected with each other. I mean everything was stagnant. And guys, this year would be the most miserable year for me, like a piece of shit is thrown on my face, LITERALLY. 2009 is a jynx on my humanity. From school, to friends to my family everything was screwed and messed up. Luckily there are some good vibrations that keep coming along this 2009 journey.  To start it off, I will breakdown everything from the different places ive been and from the different factors that is connected to myself.

 

Kicking it off the number one place i almost spend half of my day was my dear college, CHINESE GENERAL HOSPITAL COLLEGE OF NURSING AND LIBERAL arts. Who can ever fail to remember what was happen to me in my NCM 101 times, I failed to pass my subject that is why i entered removals examination which also is a failure, however i need to pass this REMEDIAL examinations in order for me to continue my NURSING path. Luckily, well thanks to God and all his saints and angels, my friends and me passed this 5 rounds of difficult examinations, *sighs*, i mean very difficult. Also this year I experienced my very first repeat rotation in the hospital because of a failure of fulfiiling the requirements in one of the wards in the hospital under Ms. Ligon. Yeah i know, too many failures for me this year. I am more affected by the failure of my friends especially my bestfriends than mine. Passing my subjects for me is not as good as PASSING MY FRIENDS subjects, i want to pass my subjects with them passing it too, i want to see my friends and I walking the stage for graduation rites, You see i love them so much, i hope that they can see and feel my effort. This year also marks my victory for film making, we are recognized and awarded by the college for teh movie CAROL. This movie did not only gave me those plaques, large trophies and recognition, This movie also gave me friends *new friends*, a massive hole of experience and learning and lots of fun. I will never ever forget this experience until my last breath. I admire Nikka and LittleJohn the most, they are heroes for me, patience and dedication, those are the two values i have learned from them. I know there will come an instance in our life where we will run in circles and let me tell you my friend running in circles was never easy.Going back, of course duties there, duties here those are just integration of my life as a student nurse. And this year  also marks my first time in the OPERATING THEATER. Those instruments, those vital organs, the surgeons who are so cool that someday i want to be like one of them, the hands of Jesus. I remember something when we are on the operating room and performing appendectomy, this surgeon Dr. lao, told me that i will be a better o.r. nurse in the future, which flatters me alot. And that gave me more strength and dedication on this program i am currently enrolled.

 

When it comes to my college friends. I think my relationship with them worsen. YES, but in a good side, i am so much attached with them. My bestfriends in college are like my brothers and sisters already to me. There would come times, where i really want to go to their houses because i really missed them a lot. but damn it, their houses are so far from mine. I am not vocal person where i will say my longingness to them,  i just want them to feel it. I don't know what will happen to me if one of them leave me, eventually i already dreamt it and when i woke up i was crying *sounds too gay*, but crap i really do cried. Maybe my college friends are far different than my highschool buddies, i think with no favoritism at all, I felt loved and i am more happy with my college friends. Especially Charmaigne (THE FUNNY ONE, makes me laugh at times of bitterness and loneliness, she is my aspirin when i am sick, i labeled her as one of the pillars of humor in the classroom, she is like  virus she gave me thoughts of being an ICON when it comes to clothing and stuffs, she corrects me the way i cloth, actually he always laughs at my foolishness.when it love, i know that this love she is inclined to,would last a lifetime lol.) Errieka (the YELLOW JESTER she is funny and she speaks what's on her mind, she defends me to the bitches of the college, expressive but just like any other girl who falls and sometimes get hurt, well she is a martyr not only in love also in friendship) ,  Abby (the DOG GURU. Who couldn't remeber JUNNEL his boyfreind for 6 years which always coinsides in all her stories, but frankly i am learning from it, SHE is a love guru, she also the VOICE of the barkada well the both of us i guess, she sings like an angel) , Raymart (the ANGAS, he's moves would make you think he is raised from a prison, but looks can be deceiving, he has a good heart and he is the opposite of me. He is one of my TAKBUHANS before when problem clouds my view of hope, he is an ideal friend.)   , JV ( the DRINKING BUUDY, i never thought that i would be friends with him, started with drinking alcoholsss, he gave me learnings an inspirational stories, that's why i admire him alot. he is a good son which i hope i could also be someday, he is a walking humor, and he is good on guitar) , Jhonna( the FAT one, she's getting fat everytime i see her, i don't know why, though she is not on CGHCN anymore, she is one of my bestfriends whom i can count on in times of crisis, shes an angel in disguise.a trying hard comedian.lol. hahah), Carmina ( the MALDITA one, she is quiet and a maria clara for some, but to tell you she is a demon in disguise, i treated her as my elder sister the one whom i can confide to, when tough problems came, she is one of my consultant, most of the time she is bipolar,lol.. she understands me alot, she is the love of Ralph's life. lol, ) and Ralph ( the MAN, whom i treated as my unbiological TWIN brother, he is one of the pillars of kalokohan,he is a drinking buddy and my best PAL on our duties, he is like my diary and my stress ball though sometimes he is rude but now i can compensate with that, COLLIDING with his wants was never difficult, he is my eye and my mouth, and the best thing is he persuades me when im wrong hindi niya ako kinokonsinte, he is the BEST). They are the best people life has too offer. Losing them is like losing myself.

 

When it comes to my family. Well i hate it. My parents act like they are in their teeny bopper age, Where my dad can hang out with other girls and my mom will get mad and she needs a cool off. It's like we are a rich family where they can do what they want, Hell yeah, not for me! They should know for a fact that they already have childrens. Too much for it. But i love them.

 

2010 would be another year for me. I hope that this year would be less expensive, less messy, more happiness to come. MANOELSTER also marks his 5th year in the business. Every year i should give thanks to MAYOCHAN, she is my master, she started this all, she gave me the capacity to be a graphic artist and a blogger well i guess the rest is up to me on how can I chisel that gift from MAYOCHAN, Ms. Donna Carlos, also a colleague in nursing. She is the pillar of my blogging career. I remember when i started designing in PHOTOSHOP 7 and Now i am on CS3 extended, and studying to design on COREL draw, i gave up all to her, *applause*.

To my  fellow bloggers, readers, students and friends. I tell you this " MANOELSTER NETWORK will be the most competent graphic network in the country" and with your exuberance and my knowledge perpuity , i promise you that i will never give up what i've started. THIS TIME IT WILL BE BETTER. Because we are one team.one manoelster.XXD. HAPPPY 2010, and many more 2010+  to come.. * sings auld lang syne*.)

 

 

 

 

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First and foremost I would like to greet you and all the fellow tabulistas and bloggers who are avidly reading my blog, even those who are not bloggers at all, i mean my stalkers, just kidding, a MERRY CHRISTMAS not only to you but also your family and your entire clan. This week would've been, i think the best . Sunday, December 20 the package of my cousin just arrived from the United States of America of course i have a pair of shoes from OLD NAVY there. It is my cousin's gift for me. Also that sunday we celebrated the birthday of my uncle which is actually on December 22. Foods fllled the table and that marks my vacation to TAGUIG. At last I will go back to my hometown the city of joy and delight. December 22 I went back to Quezon City via the MRT because I need to submit a request letter to the RSCC for our socialization activity on January 8 although it is raining I still need to go there because it is also our victory party for the movie CAROL.

 

Well I went with my unbiological twin there, Ralph, who also celebrated his birthday last December 23. We bond and he treated me to the IMAX theater where we get the chance to watch the movie which made my jaw dropped to the floor, AVATAR. We watched it in full 3D. The visual effects really made me crave for more. I was totally enthralled and AMAZED MY THE MAGNANIMOUS DIGITAL VISUALS THE MOVIE USED. From the characters to the setting of the movie especially those species and the trees, Oh Crap! I think this is one of the best movies which features best visual effects. applause to those people involved for putting such creation. Well when it comes to the story, it seems that it is too predictable. I mean the story is common, nothing new. With no pretentious thoughts, I think that the movie's plot is such a turn off, but the fight scene I mean the war scene of the sky people to the avatars it was such a whooping scene.  The verdict is 70-30, 70% for the sounds, effects and the way the movie is attacked and 30% for the story. After seeing the movie we went straight to Nikka's house to celebrate the victory party. A couple of games and lots and lots of food again filled the table. Everyone is there i think, LJ also prepard some drinks for us. Honestly I get a little dizzy from the drink, i almost forgot that i will commute on my way to Taguig. The night was a blast, fun, fun and fun. The whole movie experience did not only gave me awards and recognition but also gave me new friends and lots of learning. I will surely never forget that once in my life I've experienced this thing. I leave the party at 9.30 pm and I got home at about 10.30 in the evening. Sure thing the MRT did not close or else i guess i have to spend my night at the streets.

 

December 24: CHRISTMAS EVE, we prepare dthe foods we nedd for our Noche buena went to Market Market for last minute shopping.  Like any typical Christma eve celebration we went to mass at night then we went home for the NOCHE BUENA. I feel so bloated that Night. I am so full that i can't breathe that particular moment. 

 

Then Yesterday December 25 we went to mass then go straight to my cousin's house again to EAT. EAT and eat. My mouth is so tired of eating then at night i went to JUNo's house to celebrate with my highschool buddies. This is actually my first Christmas where i got the chance to spend it with my family and with my friends. I am so lucky!!!! amf! Again let us not forget why are we celebrating CHRISTMAS, this is the birthfay of our Saviour Jesus Christ. Well my friends, this is the best time to thank him for all the blessings we received this year. And also we need to keep in our mind hearts that this season is the season of giving!!! Again MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

 

Now Listening to: i'll be
Now feeling: naiinis
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