I am actually exhausted right now. I feel like I'm already drained by the expectations this program (course) wants me to do. Yesterday when I got home tired, weary and super weak as in, My dad and mom give me a dozen of " demands", they even got angry at me when I forgot to put my clothes to laundry, they gave me words and cuss that made me in distress. That's why I answered them in an illed manner way while crying, I said to them "  I'm tired"... really tired. And I point out to them that I have a really hard time coping up withmy subjects because what I said earlier, it's all in the demands of this course. From the quizzes, long exams, NCP's, case studies and even case presentation really gave me a heartache. I know I am not in the position to answer my parents in such way, but I hope that they will understand me, and instead of givine me burden they should give me the support that I ought to have because they are my parents, they should see my worth. I am doing this not for my own good, but for the good of them. they want to go to states, so be it, that is why I am studying Nursing.

I know it's kinda rude and it is a not an adnirable attitude from a son. But I've already done it. Stress and hardwork plus patience, darn! So i decided not to go with them yesterday and decided to stay to my uncles and cousin. I am not that lonely in class especially in the hospital setting, my friends are with me. Even in our duties I am never tired because of my groupmates whom I considered my best pals in my Nursing career.

I think that I am getting too dramatic this week, and it is not me anymore. I am so fierce and tough when handling such problems. I don't know, I really don't know. I love Group 2, my RLE group, so much not all of them really. They are my fortress in our duties. And on the other day, There is a not really fight, but almost a fight, It is because of a piece of stethoscope, my Stethoscope specifically that triggered the arguments. One of my groupmate "lopez" blamed "ralph" as the one who get it because I can't find it and it is vital signs time. And the steth I am pertaining to is a Littman classic that my aunt gave me before, It is a very special steth because it is her personal use since '96. That's why I am taking care of it like a pet. Going back, I know I am also to blame because I even doubted ralph's statement that he is not the one who used it or hide it. So he goes out like a mad killer and I follwed him and said to me with power and intense "'Tang ina mo, Sisihin nio ako". I even him push him to guard myself. And it is my first time to see him acting like that, because personally he is not like that, he is quiet and always laughing. But from that moment I saw him like a dragon with ears flaming hot.

 So i decided not to talk to him or not to bother him anymore. Unfortunately my steth is being used by Nox then. And tetay even come between the two of us and she even said "mag shake hands na nga kayo, I laugh inside inisip ko "PArang bata naman masyado tong atake na to",  But my pride is as high as the peak of Mount everest that I will not apologize for that mistake. And I even asked our Instructor that if she can allow me to step out of the duty that day. But she said to me "kakain mo lang, aalis ka na naman". lol. And I have no guts to see my patient anymore, because he is my buddy for that day and pride kills me. The staff asked me to obseve the IV bottle because we will discontinue it that day, so I have no choice but to act professionally then there he comes. But I think our patient is the mediator  because of the plato wraps that may patient gave us with that chunky chicken inside we became ok. One thing I learned from this is never doubt a friend. Doubt a stranger but not a friend, and not to blame someone if you have no proof. But i think it is healthy to fight with a friend even Jesus and Peter fight once, but if you really are friends then there are no boundaries for forgiveness.

After that we played l4d with emerson and Nox and martian as well. With tha kind of scene, I started to get nostalgic and again missed highschool. I miss my life, the way I live highschool is so great  that every moment of my life I will cherish it. The friends I have on highschool are like precious stones to me, to be kept and to be treasured. Second to my family I have my college friends and my highschool friends. The word friend is very broad, you can never use it to a certain person once you appreciated the meaning of it or once you learn how to be a friend. I wanna go back to highschool. I turned on the radio last night and coincidentally the song is somewhat like this " highschool life oh ang highschool life, every memory kay ganda" .

 

So much for the drama. I just want to give my symphaty and condolences to the relatives and family of the late Michael Jackson, he really is a pop icon, but sorry for him I am not a fan. So MJ wherever you are just BEAT IT......

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Ewan ko bakit napakatanga ko ngayong araw na to. Pumasok ako ng tanga. Alam ko swerte naman ako kasi sabi sa horoscope ko, araw ko ngayon. Dumikit lang ako sa kaklase kong nagngangalang Ralph at siya ang nakatokang partner ko sa pasyente ko, aba ayun nagsimula ang katangahan. Wait, masaya nga pala ako Kay Ma'am Limjoco at sya ang naging C.I namin sa N3 sa ospital, feeling ko isa akong magaling na nurse, isang aspiring na clinical instructor o pwedeng maging isang doktor balang araw. Ginawa pa niya akong supervisor kanina. At feel ko namang mangutos sa mga kasama ko.

Going back. Ililista ko ang mga katangahan ko kanina:

a. Nalimutan kong ibalik ang lalagyanan ng thermometer sa kwarto ng pasyente ko, nadala ko sa canteen. Buti na lang mabait asawa ng pasyente ko isang dentista.

b. Dumaan ako sa daanan ng kotse, muntikan na akong madaganan ng harang ng kotse sa parking

c. Natapon ko yung urine ng pasyente sa sahig, nakatanag ako sa wowowee

d. Mali ang naiplot ko sa chart na BP,, nakatanga ako sa hangin, buti na lang nabura, samantalang si Ralph tawa ng tawa sa buong ward.

Grabe yung iba di ko matandaan, pero laughtrip kanina sa ward sobra. Di ko malilimutan tong araw na to.

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I was moved not only by the digital visual effeccts of the movie, it is also because of the power and impact of the movie that make me crave for more. I am pertaining to Transformers "Revenge of the fallen". It is a mixture of everything. This is the kind of movie I always dreamt to watch and Michael Bay found the rifght formula and the right pathways to make this movie "one of a kind". Of course who the heck doesn't know the autobots and the decepticons. Optimus Prime and Megatron, BumbleBee and Starscream?. This are some of the transformers that are still part of the cast.

The movie is a combination of evry emotions created to make a certain audience feel high and feel worthy of that 200+ peso they paid on the different movie houses.Comedy, action, love, hate, revenge, passion, service, action and comedy again, did I mention comedy already?. Comedy + action, for me this is the perfect sum up for the movie. I laugh 45 times in the movie, I mean literally laugh. There are new casts that make the movie more entertaining to watch.Especially Simmons and Leo. They are great tandem, they bring more spice togeether than Optimus and friends.

I did not regret watching that movie, that piece of 170 for some is a very large amount especially when using it to physiological needslike foods. But I am more fed by that movie. BTW, I watched last June 25 at Trinoma witha Nox, Martian, tetay and Ralph after our not so toxic duty in N3, an OB ward in the new building of our hospital. Maybe it is not so stressful because Ma'am Limjoco served as our Clinical Instructor on that area.Unlike on our first duty where hatred and anguish develop in our heart. I will not talk about it anymore it is already a member of the past.But what can I say? Pedia Charity will be I think, is the most memorable ward in the history of my career as a nursing student. lol

Going back to Transformers. The Decepticons in the sequel are much unified and much stronger as megatron rise and regroup his team. But the highlight is the descent of the fallen where he find his revenge in the planet earth.Where he and the rest of his team searched for the matrix to use it for their own good. BTW I know I am  fucking spoiler, But I cant't hold the tip of mny tongue anymore, Apology please "Optimus will die....on the 1st half of the movie but he will rise again just like Lazarus whom Jesus brought up from the dead.

I am so inlove with Megan Fox in the movie, she is so sexy, hot and beautiful. Damn Goddess of the northern forest forgive me for the word but she really triggers the beast in me. I want to be her boyfriend. I love her with the fire red now it's turning blue... lol. She is one of the highlights in the movie.

Well the lead actor is great, funny and I think is really good. Sam wickWicky? I think, correct me if I'm wrong with the spelling. sam holds the key in finding the matrix, so he really has a vital role that's why i did not expect him to die in the story. Well to sum this long entry short I suggest all of the movie goers there, readers of my blog to watch this movie, much better if you watch it on TriNoma, mall of asia's imax and Rockwell. But some scenes are not appropriate for those kids there, there are some scenes that are not suited for you my kiddoes, but forgiven maybe, because the fact that the action in the movie is much stronger than those little bitchy scenes there. I remember a scene in the movie, where we viewers clap our hands because of the comedic attack of some scenes.

So go out and buy a ticket, grab a popcorn, call some friends, call me up if you want. And watch this movie, maybe we can compare this to Harry Potter (my fave movie of all time)..

Now Listening to: never say never

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Independence day? What do we know about it, My dear Filipinos? Are we really free from the hands of those evil leaders trying to interfere with our constitution just like before when the Spanish conquered us. Do we really feel the independence right  now.? Actually my entry is not anout this whole independence day celebration which is celebrated every June 12 here in the Philippines. I just want you my dear readers to reflect on the issues that revolves everyday on us. And for those Filipinos who are satisfied with our government today, maybe you can feel the independece with in you, which is actually good for you.

 

Well let's talk about that topic regarding Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho, Yeap I know the issue is too old for us to ponder, but I have no entries yet regarding that topic. Of course within myself I know that I am no position in writing or criticizing them, but I am a Filipino, and every Pinoy has the freedom of speech given to us by the constitution; therefore I am allowed to give my opinion. First: i don't know what's the big deal in that sex video. I think it is being over reacted and over used.

There are so many issues that the government should focus on rather some love making video issues that won't help the poor people or those people who are in need of some financial support to get their need. Senators should pass a better bill rather than making an anti BOSO bill, which i think is so bullshit. Sorry for my word! But you see, what am i pointing out. I did not watch the video, I reviwed it " see the difference?". Why so? I am looking for the points in that video which should be taken for consideration. And here are thm:

Katrina Halili is a bf thief, yes she is, we all know that Dr. Hayden Kho is previously hitch on Dra. Vicky Belo. Morally Speaking, why did this girl agree to Hayden's need to have sex. If you are really an ethical girl you should never let yourself be involved on a relationship of other people especially if you have this sexual intention on that man.

Second, Dr Hayden Kho is such a damn a**hole. Yep, maybe it his own thing, that he needs to take a video of him hooking his girl, But the problem is Why don't you gave your partner a consent that she is on a video or that there is a camera on play recording our actions. And Doctors, OMGeek, doctors should have this code of ethics. As a medical practitioner we should have this code of ethics we should follow. Now after what he did, do you think that there will be patients running to him and seek his medical help. Maybe some bitch will do.

Third, As I said awhle ago, I am not in the position to gave my criticisms, but this is my blog and I have to give this opinion. I think that Dra. Vicky Belo personally made those videos available in the market or in the banquet place today. Sorry for her fans reading my blog, but that is only what's on my mind.

I hope that this scandal will be settled already, or maybe this will be just like some old issues that will be just hanging on tthe air that soon will be forgot.
 

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Now feeling: quixotic
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